One of my biggest take away's was the Pastor of that church, Wendell Brown. He was talking about his youngest child. He talked how one of the ways he showed love to him as a new born was two pats and a rub. He shared how when his son (I believer) was older he would do that back to him as way of showing love back to him. He also shared how when he meets Jesus he wants to do the same to Him.
This really made me think. It made me think about how I show love to my little ones and how they show love back to me. It really made me think about ways I could show them I loved them with no words. Just gestures....
Right now I have a 5 month old. He's more of the size of a 1 year old. He is one of the sweetest baby's I've ever seen. His smile is captivating. He loves for you to talk to him and he loves to talk back to you. He really can make you forget about any troubles you're having with that smile. It's pretty awesome! I have many favorite things that he does, but one of my all time favorites is when he falls asleep on me. He's still nursing so these times are rare right now, so I just try to take all the chance I can get to do this. I really thought about how he or really anyone has to feel safe in order to fall asleep on someone else. I mean think about that! If you don't feel safe and comfortable around someone you can't sleep around them, let alone rest your head on them. You have to feel that comfort. You have to feel that warmth from their heart. You have to feel that security to allow them to pull you into their arms and hold you, until you rest.
This idea of rest and security in the arms of someone who loves you and you love as well really made me think about God our Father. It really made me think if I trusted him enough to just close my eyes and fall asleep in His arms? If I trusted Him enough to protect me while I rested? If I trusted Him enough to fulfill His promises with my closed? If loved Him enough to allow Him to pull me into His arms when I was in place of need and allow Him to take care of things I said I trusted Him to take care of?
If I'm honest, I'm not sure I trust Him that much all the time. I'm not sure I can let God move and guide me with my eyes closed. I'm not sure I can let God move while I rested, for I'm afraid He won't always do it the way I think it should be done. I'm not sure I can, but I want too! I want to jump in His lap with no regard for my safety! I want to jump into His arms like a little child does, trusting that they will be caught! This is something I am going to work on till I get it right. But before I close this post, I ask you.... Can you rest on Him?
